This poem was written years after my ex- husband
was incarserated for robbing drug-stores.(might I
add he also took me with him.) The only two good
things that came of our marriage was two little boys. ".Why Me?"

I don't understand,"Why me?"
What did I do to deserve all this pain?
Dear Lord,"please don't let him come home tonight!
I can't take another beating tonight.
What if someone sees my face? It is so embarassing to have two black eyes.
Why me?
My poor babies have a sight to see.
What do you say when a 4 year old says,
" We'll be okay mommie."
My mom always told me,"what comes around goes
around."
When will it come around for me?
I wasted 7 years of my life on this worthless
man, and finally he went to jail.
I believe with all my heart this is the only thing that saved me.
Why me?

To All the ones that love a convict. My guy wrote this and this has gotten us through some tough times.

Loving a Convict is not child’s play.
Loving him is a high price to pay.
It’s loving him with nothing to hold,
And staying true without being told.
It’s remembering, the honesty and the promises to wait.
It’s laying alone with your thoughts when it’s late.
It’s the love song playing and the lights down dim.
It’s tough sleeping at night, when your thinking of him.
Knowing he’s far away.
And praying it won’t be too long a stay.
Picturing him in a big empty yard,
Always under a gun and a guard.
Doing his best to fight off the clowns.
He’s your baby so you know he’ll hold his ground.
Laying alone with all your fears,
Falling asleep with your eyes filled with tears.
I know more than anyone that life can be tough,
For loving a Convict, I know is rough.
But, the man I am,
My friendship and love is true,
And in the end I’ll get what’s due.
It’s not forever I’ll have to wait.
Before I know it they open that gate.
Then your convict he’ll be free,
And a Convict no more, no more he’ll be!

OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND!

Since I been in prison, I’ve learned a lot of things.
People seem to forget you.
Somehow you become nothing.
Many people support you at the beginning of your time.
Then you start to fade away.
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND!

Many make promises they know they can’t keep.
Some even lie to you about things on the street.
People at home don’t know about the life we live in jail.
Only what they hear and assume.
Not knowing it’s really like hell!
Sitting in our cellblock, all day and all night.
Thinking of our future goals.
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND!

Many have wives and girlfriends who say they love them true.
Only to discover in time they’re out with another dude.
Knowing how much they shared.
Giving all his faith and trust.
She didn’t even care.
Some how the one’s they love turn out to do them wrong.
But the ones they took for granted turn out to be real strong and true.
So-called friends don’t write or even send a dime.
Many friends disappear.
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND!

People in prison don’t want really to much out of you.
All they ask for is love, support and caring that is TRUE.
But when friends and love one’s fall short from the end of the road.
There is always the family.
Especially moms to hold, no matter what.
Situations a son could be in.
It always comes down to family.
They’re the real friends to help him win.
It really shouldn’t happen the way it sounds.
All friends, family and love ones should always be around.
I hope that this true story changes the test of time.
I dream of love, care and support,
And not,
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND!

My son has just been incarcerated, I have been transcribing his stories and poems. He is a wonderful writer, here is one:

To strive through life without Faith
is to bring to itself its own divinity

To give strength to yourself
Empower your own morals,
Banish judgement

Give the nobility that is Humanity

Breathe

Does Zara Thustra speak to you when you dream?
Can you remember his words?

Evolve from the state of Condemnation
and bring back Godliness

In your form

For your perception is what gives you the next step in

Attainment

JB

FRIENDSHIP
Friendship conquers Death, I've seen
As memories give us a life anew

Holding on to those bright spots of
Joy and Innocence
Letting nothing be besmerched by the
echoes of disagreement
To forget those grievences of a petty nature
To remember holding each other in the
tempest of Life

And together blocking out the rain,


Friendship conquers Death, Oh yes,
I've seen JB

THIS IS DEDICATED TO MY LOVING HUSBAND... SEE YOU SOON BOBBY... PROMISE.

My heart aches
My soul wrenches,
Tears fall into the sea they created.

Why am I so sad?
Why is my heart not glad?
Why am I so mad?

My Love has been taken from me.
Not Voluntarily.
I ask, "How could he?"

So now we must live life apart,
While we mend our broken hearts.
We must gain strength from afar,
As we express our love through
The phone lines, and through glass.
Soon we will be able to touch again,
I will try not to bring him pain.
I will make sure I sustain
Our life, our home, our hearts...
While we are far apart.

Soon, all to soon...
He will be home again.
New problems to face.
New emotions to put back in place.
I ask God to please let him not disgrace
Himself again.
Let him truly be the Man I know he is.
Let him succeed in all he says.

I miss my heart, my soul.
But soon,
YES SOON...
We both will be whole!

Kimberley Dukes

First I would like to thanks thos would put this sight together! Then I would like to ask if there is anyone out here who could give me some advice: how does one cope with the bars between the ones we love?
Tina

Tina
I still cry alot while I wait for the mail! The phone calls help some but make me miss him all the more. I stay as busy as I can & dream of the day that he will be home again.

my husband is doing 25 to life. he's been down for 3 years. he wrote this-

They say time heals but I say no!
Time wounds! My wife. Our kids. My parents. Me.
They go on living with pain I caused.
I have no life but walls that hide the sun and sky
and bars that keep out the world.
I would turn time back if I could.
And not do the tings to hurt all of us.
But I can't.
Time doesn't heal. It kills. Familys. Relationships.
I wonder, will it kill love.

This poem is dedicated to Mick with all my love,
Barb:

OUR LOVE WAS MEANT TO BE

Hi honey, I love you
I hope you know I do
No matter what the future brings
Know that much to be true

We struggle and we wait
Both longing to be free
You have your chains
And my fears still hold me

When the time does come
For those chains to go down
I'll be here for you
You won't be let down

I know in my heart
That it was God's plan
For our love was meant to be
Since our romance first began

This Web page realy has touched my heart. My husband is serving 5 years in Federal prison. Its been 2 years already, yet it seems as though 10 years have past. We have 3 year old daughter, and its so hard dealing with my own stress of being incarcerated, and his pain hurts me even more, but the pain I feel when my little girl cries for her Daddy,is just unexplainable, it just breaks my heart. Our little girl thinks her Daddy is at school. She's only three, but one day when she gets older should we tell her the truth?
I visit him 3-4 times a month. My daughter comes every other visit because I have to drive over 500 miles to get to where he is incarcerated.
Life is so hard, being a young single mother is such a struggle, but I'll make it , I just know I will.
My husband and I have fought so hard these past two years, we have sucessfully made it this far,though theres never a dull moment or a visit without a tear shed. Some days are harder than others but just as long as you don't give up you'll be O.K.
One day we'll be together again, be the family we intended on being, He doesn't always believe that because its so difficult to think possitive in prison. But I know in my heart that our love is strong enough to beat any challenges that cross our path. I love my husband more than anything in this world, We've been together for 10 years, I wouyldn't give it up for the world.
A little advice: If you truely love someone who is incarcerated, Don't ever turn your back on them. Times will get rough, trust me but is your love worth the wait? If you truely love him or her then you should beable to be patient and strong enough to srtick by that person for however long it may take.
Thats all for now.
God Bless!!!!!!
Laura

My mood is pensive
Full of thought
Not expensive
Can't be bought.
Not downhearted
Just quiet space
We are parted
But still in place.
Alot to let go
More to keep
When to say no
What stays deep.
Good-bye to the anger
And bitterness too
Put it all on a hanger
Step back for a view.
Missing someone
Who is my best friend
Because of what's done
We've had much to mend.
My life's lesson is all
about fate
How to be patient
How to wait
Living for that
Open gate.
J.Davis copyright 2002

I feel like half a person
Only half alive
My insecurities worsen
But,I shall survive.

I feel like half my soul is gone
My heart out on my sleeve
My love for you...intense and strong
Although my spirit, does still grieve.

I feel half naked
Vulnerable, for all the world to see
My days are long, and full of dread
Longing for relief, just to be free.

My mind feels cloudy, muffled
Heavily encased in plastic
Struggling forward, strait ahead
But not always, enthusiastic.

I know this seems depressing
I sure don't mean it to be
I am only expressing
The emotions I carry with me.
J.Davis copyright2002

I promise to wait...
Although my soul aches,
During our time in this cage.
I live for the open gate
My soul spills over, staining
This empty page.
J.Davis Copyright2002

I am in a place
where
no one else knows
no one else sees
no one else feels.
A place of remembering
life falling apart.
Emotions crashing.
Being no longer as two,
but as one.
A place of isolation
of aloneness.
Of being the oval,
And not fitting in.
Of being on the outside
Of the world...
Looking in.
JDavis Copyright2002

Just for today
I will not grieve
I will believe.
Just for today
I will not be down
'Cuz you're not around.
Just for today
I will wear a grin
Just for today
I will win.
J.Davis Copyright2002

I have to take back
the power of my life
Where I live
Who I love
What is mine.

This pain of aloneness
And it's isolation
Becomes the madness
Inside my head.

Sleepful of nightmares
Insecurities rule this black
Static surges through my nerves
Can't eat
Can't sleep
Can't sit still.

My mind screams,
But I don't want to
LISTEN ANYMORE!!!!

There was a boy, always on the run
Runnin' from the pain
Time to face, what has been done
And fix the broken chain.

There was a girl, tryin' to escape
Escapin' from the fear
Alcohol, drugs, and rape
Relationships that were insincere.

They come together in this life
To love, protect and heal
To challenge mountains of strife
And yet, survive the wheel.

In just one day, and just one person,
What they had built, was gone
Now, one is in prison
Leaving the other, alone to carry on.

The grief has overrun
The pieces which remain
Reaching to God's Son
To feel love and strength once again.

Time is in slow motion
During this period they must wait
Loyalty, devotion
Perserverance, and good faith.

Day by day they live and breath
Doing the best they can
Keeping sadness underneath
For now, that is the plan.

All these years, she waits for him
Love intensifies
To work, to worship, sing a hymn
Loyalty only magnifies.

The heavy door of bars, now open
Allowing life anew
Knowing he has changed, from when
His soul wasn't so true.

As he steps outside to freedom
He walks anxiously through the gate
So much emotion, he feels numb
Needs to make it to the bus by eight.

She starts her car with a turn of a key
Radio singing softly on this day
Anxious and nervous about what's to be
She is afraid, that he won't want to stay.

Arriving at the station
Alongside the bus pulling in
She feels her hesitation
Body frozen, a mannequin.

Finally the moment comes
They are standing face to face
Two hearts beating like a drum
Lost within, this emotional embrace.

J.Davis Copyright2002

I wear my hair like Cactus
So I can feel close to you
Stand tall against what attacks us
No matter what they do.

I am holding on
As tightly as I can
You belong to me, on this
earth or in heaven
You are the only man.

The knight in shining armour
Who came to my emotional rescue
Who gave my life...more
who made me feel new.

Please stay beside me
Mistakes we have both made
I dream that you are free,
At home with me today.
J.Davis Copyright2002

I wish you could be
together with me
this very minute, right now.
But I don't know how
We can survive this
I think of your kiss
My heart so alone
My tomorrow unknown.
So much to share
So much despair
I need your voice,
I made my choice,
missing your eyes...
Your picture, I memorize.
Time is in slow motion
Stare out into the ocean,
Only to wait...
For fate.
J.Davis Copyright2002

I need relief
From this depression
Tried to turn a new leaf
Things I've said and done
Are now hangin on my back
I need the twin of Cactus Jack
Confused, isolated
Afraid, dislocated
Fear and anger
Has me on a hanger
A fish in a bowl
Outta control.
J.Davis Copyright2002

We must return
to our start
to heal the burn
and fix the broken part.

Start over again
from the beginning
back to when
Our souls were grinning.

To look into eyes
Windows to the soul
Two hearts that harmonize
As one, made whole.
J.Davis Copyright2002

Quiet voice
Never heard
Not a choice
Feels absurd.

Much frustration
Thoughts that scream
No expression
Or so, it would seem.

Very vulnerable, insecure
Just trying to survive
Nothing is for sure
No place to arrive.

Hanging in this hollow space
Scared, alone and lost
With only a memory of your face
My emotions, like a salad...tossed.
J.Davis Copyright2002

Burst into tears,
for no reason.
Emotions rush through
Don't know what to do.
Hold tight to the Spirit
Don't fear it
These tears leave,
A message to receive.
A peek into the soul,
Revealing , the dark-empty hole
Then the moment is gone.
As this soul becomes withdrawn.
Running fast, to the deep...inside,
To the safe place,
Where I can hide.
J.Davis Copyright2002

Only God could know
I need you in my soul.
I believe our love,
Traveled many lifetimes before.
Our love grows deeper,
Higher, more.
I search inside
Through emotions, I hide
Thoughts tumble in my mind
Words, hard to find.
Simple, works for us best
No matter what we've
tried or guessed
Time passes quickly, our hearts
On the line.
Hold on...and keep dreaming,
My Sweet Valentine.
J.Davis Copyright2002

The day you come home to me
The day you are free
This very day
Sunshine will overpower
the gray.
It will be fresh and new
Our hearts open, with an honest view.
The past is gone,
can't come up from behind.
The battle is won
Our emotions to unwind
The slate is clean
To start once again
God unseen,
Blesses us better
than we've ever been.

Inside...
Where I run deep
Emotions, security, hard to keep
My soul's been shattered
Along with trust that mattered.

Spirit fragil, delicate crystal
Nerves...a fine tuned bristle..
Secret fears never shown
Buried under, to stay unknown.

Finally made it to a place
A haven of peace, and alone space
Have to take this...one day at a time
Each emotion feels like a mountain to climb.

Confidence and courage are deeply shy
But love is strong and real enough...
to keep me willing to try.
J.Davis Copyright2002

My partner, my best friend
Whom I trust and count upon...
Stolen away.
Heart ripped out.
Resource is prayer.
Nightmares come.
Fear takes over.
Emotions are numb.
Focus on survival.
Struggle through.
Shock and grief-
Reality in pieces,
The size of a crumb.
Go through the motions
Head caught in this plastic bag.
Spirit is stifled...
Seems easier that way.
J.Davis Copyright2002

See my trust
As shattered glass
across the floor
Soul turned black
Sound of a slamming door
Don't look back.

Hearts turning cold
Love-feels old
Drowning in fear
I can no longer hear.

Promises made
Upon the broken pieces
Grasping for something
as I go under
Gasping for the very air
Which suffocates my mind.
J.Davis Copyright2002

Promises of forever
Never meant to keep
Thoughts stir
Emotions deep.

What I do
Or what I don't
Or who
Or even who I won't.

These are things
Only mine
My freedom sings
Fading with time.

Let the words and
the sounds
Of music wash away
my head
To cut what is bound
In this place I've
been led.
J.Davis Copyright2002

My back's against
the wall
Fire, all around
Wasn't ready for
the fall.

Wasn't ready,
for this anger.
This pain.
Open this box
and let me out.

Didn't know crash and burn
would come this hard,
Thought I was strong
I let down my guard
I was wrong

Someone...
Please help me out!!!
J.Davis Copyright2002

I feel like crawling out
of my skin...
Just for awhile.

To get out of this madness
I'm drowning in...
Just for awhile.

To be not shy...
Just for awhile.

Laughing, playing,
singing...
Just for awhile.
J.Davis Copyright2002

Crash and burn
Here I go again
Crash and burn
Does it ever end?
Reached rock bottom
Depression has peaked
Falling apart
Tired eyes can't sleep
Battered heart
Won't keep
On a downer, all alone
Walking this beaten path
Over and over
Crash and burn
Here I am
Crash and burn
Come full circle
Here I go again.
J.Davis Copyright2002

NIGHT
Has fallen around me
The dark chews me up
Swallowing my soul
Spitting the rest out.
Floating inside nothingness
No solid footing, no control.
The black strips me of myself
Pushing me
Into a hold of red
The hot flames burn
The nakedness of my soul.
I want OUT of this place.
J.Davis Copyright2002

The crazy moon (it's)
Madness will begin
Set to ruin
See it's dirty grin
Mocking laughter
All in your head
Left alone after
With pain and dread
Nothing takes it away
No relief in sight
Oh God, I pray
Give me the strength to fight
To keep myself together
One more day
'Cuz I don't know whether
I can't make it through, this way
Close to falling apart
My head is screaming
And so is my heart
My invisible tears are streaming
When will this be done?
when can he come back?
When will we have won,
This devastating attack?
J.Davis Copyright2002

Heart shut down
Pain?...suck it in
Let it drown
Take it on the chin.

Heart shut down
Bring on the numb
Walking this town
To keep self under thumb.

Heart sinks deep
Melting into the soul
Struggling to keep
Together and whole.
J.Davis Copyright2002

Bored and tired
Of carrying this anger
Overloaded and wired
Roaming the edge of danger.

No one to listen-
Or to believe
Embarrassment
seems to glisten
Shame never to leave.

Boiling anger overflows
Burnt heart, in pieces has crumbled
Bitterness, resentment quickly grows
Reaching for God, to keep me...
Humbled.
J.Davis Copyright2002

Feel like a fish in a bowl
Left on the back porch
Heart so hard to console
Left with a very deep scorch.

Why is it, who I look up to leaves?
My heart...constantly grieves
How easily they turn theyr'e back
My heart...now heavy, as a
stone-filled sack.
J.Davis Copyright2002

Watching as another life-line
fades away
Heart anticipates the grief
Heart is heavy,
waiting for that day.
this time has been precious
no matter how brief
Something solid
has been made
And influence to hold
A foundation laid
A gift that cannot
be bought or sold.
J.Davis Copyright2002

A moment of
Solitude, reflection and quiet
Outside of
The kaos, confusion and riot
To clear the emotion
And busy thought
Which overrun
A heart which is caught
Held down by the strap
Of this world and it's pride
Escaping this trap
Run free to the outside
Step back, for a view
As the hunt now begins
Although fear will prusue
Courage and Faith
Always wins.
J.Davis Copyright2002

"Imagine" Imagine a world where time stands still, Where nothing you do is of your own free will.Stripped of your freedom,your hopes, and your pride.Surrounded by strangers with no place to hide.Imagine a world where you are told what to wear. A place where it seems that nobody cares. You're told each day when not to talk and where you can and cannot walk. Imagine a world where your surrounded by hate, and all you can do is sit and wait. Imagine a world where you have no choice, where you cannot think because all of the noise. Imagine a place where you work for no pay, and you're made to feel worthless each and every day.Imagine a world where the days crawl by like snails, where all you have to hope for is just a little mail. Imagine a world surrounded by wire and to walk free is your greatest desire.

JUST ONE KISS
Here and There an image of you and your long dark hair.
Wherever you are near or far im my eyes you'll always be my shinning star.
Thick or thin, I'm looking back at where weve been . Please open your heart and let me in.
Fast or slow, only you know if our love will parish or grow.
Begining or end, you've been my best friend someone I can count on to never pretend.
That or this, It's your love that I miss and I'd give my life for just one kiss.

in school when worked like hell i met this boy i loved so well he took his heart away from me and now he gone to set me free he sat a strange girl on his knee and told her things he never told mei ran stright home and cryed on my bed not a word to my mother was said my dad came late that night and looked for me left to right to my room the door he broke and found me hanning from a rope oh"daughter of mine what have u done u killed urself for another man son he got a knife and cut me down on the dresser note he found when i die burry me deep does this for me daddy since i am all alone and on my stone i want a dove to show the world i die for love...?trisha southphilly life is rough sometimes ya no?

First of all I want to say that this website is really great. It helps all of us on the outside who have loved ones in prison. We do their time with them, although some cant understand it. Noone can understand the depression and lonliness we go through everyday. I am 20 yrs. old and my husband has been gone for 6 months now. It's hard, but we've all just got to look forward to the future. The poems are wonderful!

i can totaly relate to all of these poems this website is very helpful my boyfriend is in state prsion fro a 5 year prison term which is probably gonnna be reduced to 2and a half years, still the pain that he caused me when he was out haunts me he promises me he will be totally differnt by recieving letters and phone calls i can tell he has already changed i just need someone elses input, that has went through something similiar.

I just wanted to say that I think this site is wonderful. There are some things you can not express and can not really come to terms with because it just hurts too much. I am 19yrs. old and my fiance who is 20 is doing 2 years. He's only been in there for 2 months and I feel like it's been forever. My whole life has changed for the worse and I miss him terribly but this web site gives me some hope that things will get better in the future and he'll be back home w/ me where he belongs. <3*I LOVE YOU MARK*<3

i wrote this poem in 1995 when i was 15
DONE IT AGAIN DADDY

my daddy commited another crime i guess this means hes going to do more time...
more time in a jail cell
only he can tell.....
...tell me why he did it again...
why would he want to go back to the penn

My husband has went back to prison Berly yesterday
and we have 11years together with two beautiful
kidds. I am filled with so much pain he has put us through.I love him with all my heart,But to go on waiting for him would be a waiste. I think prison life changes a man nothing would ever be the same.I can't speak for everyone but to me nothing paid off but alot of pain and agony. I regreat putting my life on hold.

This is a poem that my fiance sent to me in one of his letters. I just thought I would share it with the world.

The Visit
I wait all week just to see your face,
Then Saturday comes and my heart begins to race,
Although I have to see you through metal and glass,
I know that these times will eventually pass,
So try not to think of our time apart
Just know that my love comes straight from the heart.
I should have listened to what you had to say,
But, I chose not to and that's why I'm here today,
I wonder when I'll see your beautiful smile,
It makes this time easier, makes it worthwhile
I'll wait for the day when we are together,
To hold you in my arms, now and forever.

My Partner is about to face sentencing and it is driving me mad just thinking about it. I'm already so depressed. I know he is a good person and i love him with all my heart and I’ll wait for as long as it takes. I know it'll be hard living alone struggling with bills missing him like crazy.
But this Website is the first thing in weeks to put a smile on my face. It's good to know that they are real people out their going though the same problems
My heart goes out to all of you x

These poems bring some comfort that I know I'm not alone in my heartache. My boyfriend is looking at two years in prison right now. He got arrested on Mother's Day this year, our son was only 6 days old. I miss him and am lost without him. My heart goes out to all those incarcerated and their loved ones.

i am not in to poems to much. but i do like the ones that hit the relationship and problems my kids dad and i have had while he was always in and out.

My man currently has 3 yrs left on a five yr sentence.. I struggle everyday with thoughts and fears of whats in our future. I love him soo much, but damn all his doubts in my faithfulness hurts me, and makes me wonder.

Looking for ladies who are experiencing similar dilemas to talk with, and possibly we can lean on each other while our men are away.

MIA
Go to the "wives waiting for husbands" link on this site and there are plenty of us out there you can correspond with.

I wrote this poem while waiting for a bus after visiting my man which was locked up in another state in the middle of no where

The visit ill try and recall, but its all a daze
if you want something get it, no matter the maze.
My man is my world
my world has been taken
straight from my loving arms
how can they be mistaking
cause its me who cares
the meals i should be making.
Nothing i can do, so i regret to say
nothing but hate for the system
look where he lay.
A thin cold matress, in a cold lonely room
all of his surroundings remind him of doom.
I dont like other people looking after my man,
we look after each other, that was the plan.
im trying to recall
what i wanted to write before
but what i wanted to write
had no sight
try to be nice
anger and ice
yeah i see my man - good
but one thing needs to be understood
its the most painful thing one must do
walk away without him with you.
nothing in the world kills me more
to see my babys face as they close the door.

i found its really hard to speak to anybody regarding my boyfriend being in prison as they were either judgemental, or completly clueless, i found poetry and daily letters to my boyfriend was the only way to cope...
anybody out there
i wish theree were someone
to understand my pain
someone to say they feel exactly the same
fortunately for those i know
have not suffered the long time
without their co.
only then they'd understand
that empty low.
to have your loved one just snatched away
something i dont want again
this i pray.
one minute he's in your arms
the next he's gone
this is the day
you wished you were never born.
he's gone for a while
gone without a say
i was fearing
the coming of this day.
this is what happens
when one will play
with a naughty boy,
try to change his way.
i dreaded the consequences
of my love
feelings so strong
they rise above.
my bed is so cold,
lonely too
moments of happiness
are very few.
tears soak my pillow
where are you to wipe them away
no tears would be there
as its with you i lay.
its hard to lay in bed at night
and not feel your warmth
or have you in sight
my love is strong
it will never die
when i said "forever and always"
it was no lie.

Hey out there.
im so glad i found this site, and hope i can get some good input from other people who experience the same feelings of anger, depression, lonliness, and helplessness as myself. Im 22 years old from australia and my of 3 years has just recently been locked up for the second time. again i have to peel myself from the exhausting depression i deal with as the love of my life is no longer there when i wake up. i need to get my life in a bit of order, but i need support, no one understands, im looking to chat to people who know what its about.. just give as an email or anything.

I just wanted to post on here how much I love my man "Lokey". So far he's done 6 1/2 years and still has a lot more to go. We got married five months after he got locked up, but I'm still here and I'm still faithfully waiting. For all ya'll women that are really holding it down for your men, keep your heads up, there are few women out there that can truly stay down. Make sure your man respects you and appreciates what he has. Remember, no matter how much you love him.... you're visiting your man in a prison, not a king at his castle. The first few years for me and mine were rough, but we made it and things are almost as good as they can get (in our situation, of course). My advice:
Follow your heart-- but know your worth. You choose what you want for your life, but if you choose to stay with him knowing how much time he has... when times get hard, you can't throw it in his face that it's all his fault.... in a sense, it's your fault too cause you chose to stay with him.
To my husband... I love you with all my heart. See you soon.

today i found this site and its weird to see all your feeling written into words for a stranger i've never even met. there is a good chance our prayers will be answered and he will be released on oct. 5th 2004. and i intend to show him this web site as well. thank you to all the authors who took the time to post their poetry here for you will honestly know the comfort your words have brought to my inner soul!thanks again BY DADDEEZGURL

My fiancee got locked up in May of 2004 and they sentenced him to three years. I was six months pregnant when he left. It is now sept. and I just delivered our beautiful daughter one week ago. I never thought I could survive this time, but it has gotten a little easier after some time. He says he will be getting out hopefully by january, 2005. I love him so much and I have promised him I will never leave his side. That is what he needs to know and believe to get through this himself. It is scary out here alone but I am glad there are others that can help me out with the same situations. Everyone out there, if you really love your man, just stand by him, its rough but if you know your love is true then its all worth it when its thru. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, and that is what this has done for our relationship, it has made us stronger in our love for each other. Keep your heads up!
KB

well this is my first time on this site my husband was sentenced two years it has already been 4 months and it is so hard but i know thatwe can make it after reading these poems it gave me hope but the most hardest thing is that he thinks im cheating on him and that i want be here when he gets out how do i make him believe in me please someone help me i need some advice

Krazygurl,
You can't "make him believe you," nor should you have to try. He is feeling insecure because of where he is and that's it. He needs to go through the emotions and losses of the outside world in order to get past it. My advice to you would be to just blow him off when he starts to accuse you and tell him you will talk to him later. He will learn that he doesn't get to talk to you if he is going to be imature and insecure by battering you with accusals. It may be hard at first since I know you want to talk to him so badly but he will learn to respect you in that fashion. That is just my advice, and what I would do. If you want more support there is more activity under the "Waiting for Husbands" title.

janine,
thanks for the advice its just so hard on me you know noone around me understands how i feel so when i found this web sight i figured some might understand anyways i'll try that and see if it works

lonely girl,
that's deep, your man is truly blessed.
keep it real.

I know how each and everyone of you feels. My husband has been in prison for almost 4 years now. I would like to say that it gets eaiser with time, but it does not. I think that the only thing that happens is you get use to being alone. Still there is never a moment in any day that goes by that I do not wish that he were here with me and the kids. I love him just as I did when he left if not more. We have been married for 14 years and have 3 childern together. He comes up for parole again I pray that this time they find it in their hearts to allow him to come home to us. We will see I put it in God's hands I wish you all luck.

hi i'm not good on poems but my son will be going to jackson ga prison soon. and for how long i don't no he;s missing alot on the out side he has two tween baby boys and for you all here god bless you all.

How do i bail my friend out when i'm 16 and he's 18 and in jail right now, ready to be bailed out, but may have to go to prison for 15 years?

Amber,
I am not sure what you can legally do at 16. I am sure money talks though. Try contacting a bail bondsman or an attorney if your friend means that much to you.

I have a friend I met in prison. I worked there. We fell in love. That was in 2000. It is now 2004. We have kept in touch and I last visited in 2001. How it hurt to walk out and leave each day. I looked forward to seeing him every day until I quit.


He was transferred elsewhere soon after. We look forward to his release date in early 2006. I have cried a sea of tears and miss him so. He says he loves me and I do too. We wait. We pray. We hope for that one day, "our day" and hopefully "forever." This online helps me to read and know that we all feel and experience similar feelings and situations. WHY? Because we care for someone that has made mistakes, are weak, or unable to control their urges. Letting them know that they are still loved and that they matter is what makes their days easier, their time easier to cope. God bless all and most important: KEEP the FAITH and HOPE one day at a time.

this is a poem i wrote to my husband the first day he was sent off
i need you
as i lay in our bed and try to sleep thoughts rush my head im in too deep i havent ate all day nor can i sleep all i can do is lay here and weep i miss u so much i cant belive that ur gone i need you to be home to hold me all night long not a second goes by that your not on my mind because i need u here with me all of the time when your not here its hard to breath i cant even think i need you back home to set my mind stright with out u im lost in a world dark and cold to get you back i would turn down diamonds and gold so please baby hurry back im lonely and cold

I've been writing to my friends cousin for over a year now it's so hard when you start to grow these deep feelings i know because iam growing strong feelings for him. iam glad i found this website to help me with the support godbless all of you and your convicts....

im just a mother who loves her son ,we got 22 months in fl. for haveing 2 pills in his pocket, at bike week; you will never know how it feels untill you go through it (im just a mama who love her son, no matter what no matter what comes, i cant wait for the day to come, to pick up my son from the florida sun; i hate that place and will never return, because the could have sent him home to tn to do his time, but no it just another let down, but we will be ok someday and all of you will to, (i know, because love for your son is always true) the law cant touch that no matter how hard they try they cant take what we feel ,i dont know what to say just keep loveing and it will get better someday

To Anonymous
Thank you for you posting...I too am in that same situation...He and I met after he was locked up...I knew the minute I first seen him...there was no denying it....He comes home to me in mid 2007....Life waits here for him...

my b/f of a year is now in jail and it kills me so bad to just sit back and not to able to hold him..i long for his touch and his sweet and warm embrace and those sweet and loving memories that can never be erased...i love him with all my heart and no matter what will be here for him with open arms when he gets out!!!!!!!!!!!!!I LOVE YOU JOE

Seagoville Texas is a world away for me right now...The road from there to here is very long...My Steven is so deep in my soul that I swear I feel him at night. I am sure this is something that everyone has felt that has their life put on hold for any amount of time. Just keep your head up ...They need you... You need them....I met him while he was locked up its been a year now and I love him more than ever. I learn each day that his life and my life are not similar but again are so similar. This is all a test...its up to us to pass it... I plan on passing it. Life waits here for him... I LOVE YOU MUD

hi i was looking at this site i just found it today it would first like to say i think its great that there a place people can go to write poems to there man or vise vierser but anyway
i am 18 years old i have been wit my man for 6 years seem like for ever cus were so young he is 20 we have a 2 year old daughter he just went to prison he is looking at 5-10 yeard for armed robbery & atempted murder that he did have shit to do with all based on he said she said bullshit but that all besides the point i just dont know what to do they took away my everything i cant eat or sleep or doing anything but i know my life must go on for my baby but when they took him they didnt just take my babys father or just my lover they took away my best friend the one i could trust with my deepest secrets but now im so alnoe he not here to hold me or tell me he loves me but hes the one i want and the one i love the only man i know so im i crazy to wait please tell me what am i to do

and oh yea i love you kevin rue no matter what me and tanaiya will be waiting for you to get home so please hurry home

god bless all the convicts im 17 and my b/f has been in jail 4 6 months i miss him so much and i promised i would wait do wat u can with wat you have were u r xxx

whats good people i know probaly nuttin wit your mans in jail but i got some bad news today my baby had cout and they gave him ten years for one charge and looking at 5 more for another charge so hopefully on his next court date it will go better well ill write more another time out

MY BOYFRIEND HAS BEEN LOCKED UP FOR SO LONG AND I MISS HIM SO MUCH. WE RECENTLEY BROKE UP DUE TO SOME SEVERE MISTAKES I CHOSE TO MAKE, BUT HE IS STILL THE ONLY MAN FOR ME. HE WILL BE LET OUT SOMETIME AT THE END OF THE MONTH AND IT'S DRIVING ME INSANE AT THOUGHT OF NOT BEING IN HIS LIFE. SHANNON I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH AND IAM SO SORRY FOR LETTING YOU DOWN. I HOPE WE CAN START OVER. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND THERE IS ALWAYS GONNA BE A SPOT IN MY HEART JUST FOR YOU. LOVE ALWAYS, JENNY

As I sit I feel as if the walls are closing in on me and I can only imagin how you feel being in there so alone so far away from me. I know that you can only feel just as lonely as I do.Even though when on the outide we seem to make some stupid mistakes it is always a lesson learned in life. And baby while you are learning this lesson I will be out here waiting for your safe return.

Waiting by Joyce McLaughlin

So many mistakes I couldn’t see
Sad and let down, that was me
You didn’t listen to things I said
Now I’m all alone in bed

I should just let the past go
I know I should, but even so
Real regrets and pain so deep
And promises I plan to keep

Nights alone, I’ve had my share
While you were free, that wasn’t fair
And now we’re forced to be apart
I know, my sweet, it breaks your heart

The years apart I hope will show
How to act, and what to know
You have so much to learn, my dear
But I have to share my biggest fear

When you get out, you’ll feel reborn
I only hope I will not mourn
The stupid shit you did before
Had better happen never more

You’ll always have a home with me
But proud of you is what I want to be
I hope you start you life off right
When at last, together we spend the night

hello every one I to have been through the hurtfull georgia court system , they took my love (my soulmate) from the court room. no hugs,no goodbyes, only hurt ,tons of loss , and the not knowing of what has just happened. It was all I could do just to breath. and still so very hard. no phone calls allowed either. and its takes mail five to seven days to get to him or me. no visition for six to eight months has to fall under "crule " I find it hard to respect any thing to do with georgias crule and very destrutive so called law. we were handed 20 yrs to serve 10 banished from hometown they took everything 3 hundred thousand dollars in fines and once out for that, back for two more years. when is it done and over with? i thought when you lost you freedom, that was time repaying your debt to society. wrong YOU ARE NEVER DONE! theres statutory penalties on top of prison time. GEORGIA IS IN THE BUSINESS OF PROMOTING UNEMPLOYMENT,DIVORCE,AND SINGLE PARENT HOMES! once you do your time they should help you rebuild your life, not make more obstacles to overcome.... doing time in georgia-and then some!

HI MY NAME IS SAVANNAH, MY FIANCE IS IN PRISON AND I AM IN SEARCH OF FRIEND A PERSON WHO UNDERSTANDS WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH AND CAN MAYBE HELP ME GET THROUGH IT. I AM TRUELY ON MY WITS END. I LOVE MY MAN TRUE ENOUGH BUT NOONE UNDERSTANDS HOW I CAN LOVE THIS MAN BECUASE HE IS A PRISONER. I AM HOPING SOMEONE OUT HERE WILKL READ THIS AND EMAIL ME WITH A HOPE OF A FRIEND.swharton6968@yahoo.com

what poppin peoples how it going just wanted to leave a up date my baby is locked still im still trying to deal wit it its gettin better but its still rough though but thats it for now ill keep youll up dates im off this

Hey everybody my name is frances and im 17 years old. my boyfriend who is 23 just got locked up in April of this year.We've only been together since january and a lot of people say im crazy because im willing to wait for him. I understand that his sentence could be anywhere from 2-10years in a federal prison but i feel that just becaused he got locked up isnt a reason to break up with him. i love his family and HIS little girl and he loves my family and MY little girl. He wants to get married-but thats not the issue. The issue is waiting because sometimes i wonder if it was me that was locked up do i think he'd be willing to wait after 7 months of being together. the only time i have doubts is when i wander if he would do the same for me.WHAT SHOULD I DO???? Email me at ghettoangel377@yahoo.com

frances i think you should just dump him.SORRY!

My boyfriend/son's father of five years just got 8 years, and that is counting the good time! He has been convicted of robbing marijuana from drug dealers!! Now my four year old son has to feel the pain everyday. The worst part is when he asks me "when is daddy coming home?" That is to long for him to understand. His father has been in his life since he was born. Now the so called justice system has taken that away from him. It is hard being poor in such a society, with racism and hate. The guy that was the so called victim just got busted with $250,000 worth of weed and that is who put my boyfriend in prison. It is not fair, it does not make sense how can they crush such a little heart. The police know it was not fair and they know the lied. At least we have god and they have to live with the guilt for ever more.

HI to everyone. I just found this web site today and I want to say thank you to every single one of you for your messages. They have helped me tremendously. I am glad to know that I am not the only one going through this painful hard times. I am 19 years old and my boyfriend who is currently doing time at TDCJ is 25 years old. We have been together for about 5 years now. He was locked up April of 2003. He was convicted of unlawful possesssion of a firearm by a felon and was sentenced to 5 yrs. He just recently had a parole hearing and was denied. His next parole review is scheduled for July 2006. After the parole hearing he was transfered to a private prison. The last letter I received from him was probably the saddest one. He was worried because he had not heard from me in a little over a month and yet I did send him two letters. I wrote him again about two weeks ago I have yet to hear from him. I have no idea as to why he is not receiving my mail. If he is receiving my mail than how come I haven't heard from him?! I am starting to give up on on us. I'm feeeling insecure bout our relationship. What should I do? I love him with all my heart. I miss him profoundly. I need some advice. You can reach me at Lanegrita014@yahoo.com.

Nobodys cares about us! We live in the most greetest country ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i would just like to say that this site has help me so much, i have had a real tuff cople of months, my patner/sons father has been sent down for 5 yrs and we have a 10 month old boy, i know i will wait faithfully by his side coz he is our world, i think of him last thing at night and every moring when i wake, i live for the visits we have together and no that one day i will be waking up to him every moring and have him by my side once more and that keeps me going. it is the hardest thing ever having to go and visit him and leave him in there when he should be with me and not locked up in that shit hole. but justice will be done and the people who put him away will pay and it gets me by knowing that he is thinkin of me while he is in there so i will carry on travellin the 150miles every week to see him till the day i wait at the gates for him and every one on this site has given me strengh to no other people are doing the same for thier men and all our men will be so proud of us

Hi, my name is Kristina I am from kenton ohio. My fiance and sons father was just sentenced to 5 yrs. and possibly have to do 4 yrs. before he can get out he is not in prison yet still sittin in county jail but i love him with all my heart and he is my life along with my son. my son is only 5 and a half months old and it kills me every morning having to wake up and know he isn't here and wont be for a while the hardest thing for me is our son looks identicle to him and thats all i see when i look at him.. i am waiting on him and have promised him that i will be waiting by them gates when he does get out and he will have whatever it is that he may need while he is in there. we have been together for 5 yrs now and i aint willing to end it just cuz he is locked up i am not that kind os person. so yeah i know and feel what u all are going through.i also hate having to go to bed at nights with out him also but i have to be strong for the sake of our son and thats what i am trying to do. If anyone wants to talk yo u can e-mail me at kristina_burton2004@yahoo.com I wish u all luck also...

I just want to say to everyone that i know how it feels, my mother was locked up all of my childhood days, and was never there. But she got released a couple months ago and now she is free. I love her and stood by her side through the thick and thin. everyone be strong, things will eventually get better! God Bless you all!

I too have met my man since he was incarcerated. It has been two yrs now, and soon he will be home, just 4 short months to go. It is hard, especially now, I am 7 1/2 months pregnant as the result of a co-worker rape. He has supposrted me thry my descion to keep the baby. I love him so. Does anyone have a poem I can send to him to tell him that? hotblondie1979@aol.com

my man is also locked up, not for long but everyday seems like it'll never reach tomorrow. It's been a couple of days but i long for the day i hold him in my arms once again.Keeping my head up it's what i'll shall do for my man will come out and everything will be bright once more.I miss you Danilo with all my heart.

i'm glad i found this site... my boyfriend got
locked up 2 1/2 years ago and i'm still here
waiting for him faithfully. everyone i talk to
tell me i'm crazy for waiting but my heart wont
let him go! he's in federal prison and he has 3
years left
i love u

hello everyone my name is jennifer and my fiance got put in jail on october 10th and im 4 weeks preganut with his kid and its hard on me two do anything eat or even do anything cause i had a miscarrige when all the court problems and stuff started which was back 3 months from now and then i got preganut again before he had court on october 10th so im taken it pretty bad we havent really been apart and just moved in a new house and the judge said if we didnt pay 2,468 bucks before december 10th he had two do a yr

READ THIS!i have been waiting for my husband for 13 years now. it is not no walk in the park ladies. But i must say if i had to do it all over agian i would still wait. my husband is a good man that loves me alot. our marriage had been blessed by god and no one can take our love away no jail cell or prison walls the gaurds cant take it away nobody, nothing our love is pure. we good christians and any need that i need that my husband cant provide i turn to my good lord and savoir he supplies all my needs. i have been soooo blessed. and i love my husband so much our love still to this day grows and grows i thank god. and if u ladies havent received god or husbands /boyfriends has not recieved god i feel bad for you. cause jesus is comming soon and when he does will you or that man u cant let go of the one u love be in heaven?. DO YOU LOVE YOUR MAN ENOUGH TO TRY YOUR HARDEST TO GET HIM SAVED AND LIVE A CHRISTIAN LIFE LOVING GOD???? if your not willing to do that then at least love him enough to leave him cause you ant doing him no good!!!sara flores

Hi there, My man has been incarcerated for over a year now, we have been together 5 years , and this is not the first time he has to been to jail...So I know what it is to wait on the one you LOVE, it hurts so bad, but in the end it is all worth the wait when you get to hold them in your arms again...He is to be released again in January and I just keep looking forward to that day...It makes each day easier...God Bless!!

hello im new here. the love of my life has just been sent to prison. we dont kow for how long. the waiting is hard could be 3 months to 3 years.
but he never really knew the love i had for him know he slowly realizes it hurts to to have had the special time i wanted to badly with him. we write daily and talk twice a week but i still at times feel no comfort

hi everyone i just stumbled accross this site. it really helped me. im 18 my fiance is 20 we have been together for over a year. we are expecting our first child in about 4 1/2 months.
he got put in jail over stupid stuff he didnt do. he was on probation and was supposed to get off december 17 2005 which is very close. but he ended up getting screwed over by his p.o. and now is getting revocated and could possibly sit for a couple of months. i know thats not that long but when your all alone and 5 months prenant and your other half has been temporally taken away it seem like a while. he writes me every day. i write him alot too. but its so hard when you cant feel the person you love most in your life next too you. i am patienly waiting his release doing everything i can to make his days go by better. all i have to say is dont take what you have for granted cause when its taken away you realize how much you miss it. yes even the stupid things that made you angry. so plaese give me some advise on how to fill my time i just dont have anything to keep my mind on how much i miss him.
I LOVE YOU MATT!!

I just found this site today. I am in Texas and have a man in prison that tells me that he loves me. We have known each other for many many years. I really like this man, i know what he did was wrong and he is doing his time. I have not yet gotten to see him, we have been writing for over 3 months, hopefully in Jan. I will get to see him. He was just recently moved and I had to wait 60 days to get put on his visitors list. I am so ready to see him. I know he is a changed man. This site has helped me sooooo much knowing that there are other women out there who love a man in prison. It is so very lonely. He only has another year left to do and he actually is very close to our home, so going to see him will be easy. Im just so depressed because he is depressed, I wish I could do more for him. I know that writing and sending him books, magazines and stuff like that helps him to pass the time. but what helps us pass the time. I look forward to his letters as much as he does mine.....if he only knew......if anyone has any suggestions on how to make life easier for me plz let me know ...thanks.

My boyfriend was arrested Nov. 1st 2005 on a 15 year old warrant from New York and is facing 8 to 25 years in prison for conspiracy to distribute in the 2nd degree. I am so lost without him he saved my life from my abusive husband and supported me & my 2 kids like they were his own. I am scared because he left his wife & 2 kids there when he left 15 years ago. He & his wife did not have a good relationship at the time but there are a lot of unresolved issues, he says he doesn't want his ex wife and that his place is with me, and I totally trust him but sometimes old feelings come rushing back and I live in Arizona so I won't get to be there with him because there is no way i can come up with money to move out there i barely make rent as it is. Does anyone know of any place that would help with something like that?

This was written by an inmate in Maricopa County Jail in Phoenix AZ who wants to remain anonymous if you have ever been there you'll understand.

"These Stripes Ain't Mine"
I arrived here unannounced & uninvited to say the least.
To wake up one morning with no identity in the belly of the beast.
No shave, no shower,your fingerprints please...
Grab a ladmo, face the camera, its picture time freeze...
No color, nor contourn,no creases,nor pleats.
Thrown a set of ragtag stripes & XXXL plastic slippers for my feets.
Like a heard of cattle processed and spent,
Coralled on a bus, to a cell with no rent.
Now shackled and cuffed by dark currents of dread,
I lie restless in a boat I now call my bed.
Lights out inmates. The silence seems to scream,
You're now a player on Arizona's State All-Star Team.
Surrounded by mortar, brick and re-enforced concrete,
I sense despair and loneleiness in my teammate's heartbeats.
I remove my garments and whisper in prayer
on the cell's lone stone chair.
As they fall to the floor it matters not much,
I catch a glimmer of light in a book in the corner or something as such...
My curiosity aroused, I decide to see,and found it to be,
A tattered old bible. Its bookmark at Luke Twelve: twenty-three!
As I peer at this passage my faith is anew.
It's about King Solomon's clothes and God's beautiful wild flowers too.
It speaks of our worries in living day to day,
Of trust in God's knowing and asking when we pray.
He will provide from the littlest, to the biggest of needs...
From our awakining at birth, to our death, these deeds...
I now understand, "these stripes ain't mine" and weren't meant to last...
For one of God promises to his children is, "this too shall pass!"

my boyfriend got locked up 14 months ago, he got sentenced to 6 1/2 years for armed robbery. i really really miss him with all of my heart and i'd be willing to do anything for him. i am 19 years old and have been with him for 3 years. ive promised to be faithful to him and thats what i intend on doing. everyone out there whose partner is in custody keep your chin up cos thats all you can do!!!! love ya loads benni boy!!!!

GIRLS: THINGS CAN ONLY GET BETTER. I KNOW YOU THINK THEY MAY NOT BUT YOU HAVE TO BE OPTIMISTIC AND TRY AND GET ON WITH YOUR LIFE THE BEST YOU CAN, OBVIOUSLY NOT FORGETTING ABOUT YOUR LOVED ONE IN PRISON. AT THE END OF THE DAY YOUR PARTNER WANTS YOU TO BE HAPPY AND JUST CLING ONTO THE THOUGHT THAT THEY CANT KEEP HIM FOREVER AND THAT HE WILL BE RELEASED INTO THE COMMUNITY AND INTO YOUR LOVING ARMS ONE DAY. I CAN SYMPATHISE WITH YOU GIRLS COS IVE BEEN THERE, DONE THAT BUT MY PARTNER IS NOW OUT AND WE ARE HAPPILY MARRIED AND HE HAS CHANGED HIS LIFE AROUND. IT DOESNT INVOLVE DRUGS, FIGHTING OR STEALING ANYMORE AND IM SURE YOUR PARTNERS CAN CHANGE THEIR LIVES AROUND ASWELL IF YOU REALLY MEAN THAT MUCH TO THEM!! GOOD LUCK LADIES!!

im married to an inmate here in tenn and its been really hard and we have been thru alot together.we have been seeing each other for 4 yrs now and we have been married 2 yrs.this yr will be 3 yrs married. i know what every wife is going thru out there in this world,too.

hi im married to an inmate in the state of tenn prison and im sorry for those wives whos husbands is in there for life cause mine is. he will come up for parole in 2028. im sad for all of the wives out there. anonamous in tenn

Hey everyone...I'm 18 years old engaged to a 20 year old in jail...he hasent even gotten a trial yet so i have NO idea when he will be getting out. my life is SO uncertain at this point it's hard to tell where to turn to.i love him with all my heart..before he was untrue so i'm really unsure if he really has changed for the better (able to be true) i guess all i can do is pray and hold on...good luck to everyone. Please e-mail me..anybody.. omfdzshorty62@yahoo.com
Heidi

HELLO LADIES I UNDERSTAND WHAT EVERY FEMALE HERE IS GOING THROUGH AND I LOVE ALL OF YOUR POEMS I AM DATING A MAN THAT IS INCARECERATED IN NEW YORK PRISON HE HAS 22 TO LIFE HE GOES UP FOR PAROLE IN 2016....WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 2 YEARS ...HE HAS BEEN IN PRISON 12 YEARS WE MET ONLINE.....I PRAY IT WORKS OUT I LOVE HIM VERY MUCH........GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF YOU INVOLVED WITH A MAN BEHIND BARS.

This sight helped alot to see I'm not the only one waiting for my soulmate to come home to me from prison!When my boyfriend got locked up I was 6 1/2 months pregnant with our first baby.At 7 1/2 months I went into early labor and delivered my son stillborn.It was so hard to go through it without my sons father there but it was even harder to tell my love that his son who he was looking forward to coming home to had died.It crushed his heart and he was put in solitary confinement for a week!The system was wrong for doing that!Instead of helping a grieving father they made it worse!Well our baby is now in heaven but I'm still waiting for my love to come home to me!He is my best frind and true love of my life!Robert baby I miss you and J.J mommy and daddy will never forget you!

wow....this site had me full of emotions good and bad im 17 and my partner is 21 he was sentenced 5 years and has served nearly 6 months its killing me living like this but hes all i ever wanted and all i'll ever need i miss him so much i cant even visit him as im to young i dont have a picture of him or anything were simply keeping in touch via mail im trying so hard to be strong about this because as you can imagine my family arent to impressed so its great to no that im not alone and that other people share my pain id give my life to hear him laugh again just once but im sure you all feel the same i just hate it when peolple mock me because of my age they say i cant feel like the rest of you do but i bet my life on it im gonna prove them all wrong im gonna stay true and faithfull to my boyfriend forever ive found the love of my life and im gonna look after him i will be the one to stay when others decide to walk away tony my darling, my everything im counting down the days untill my life beginns again x x x x x x x x x

my fingers are crossed my b/f was sentenced 5yrs the other week tho he has already served 6 months i hear from people tho that he will only serve half that amount of time(im on hols at the moment so i will get his letter wen i get home) having done 6months already that only leaves him with two years.. im confident that im going to wait for him theres no question about it IWILL Tony you are my world,my life,my reason for waking up every morning ahhhrrgh dont you just hate it when you cant put into words how you feel anyway people wish me luck that tony only has to serve the 2 yrs as the thought of 5yrs makes me double over in pain....what would i do with my life then i dont think im strong enough i would stick it out to the very end but i think the journey would eventually kill me i need some inspiration from someone i feel like i speak a different language...or like i walk on different grounds its so strang e to think that your life is paused and i can resume it wen i wish only i want to pause it i want him to go through everything with me share avery memory and experience i feel so weak without my other half yet at the same time he makes me feel so strong together we conquered everything nothing or nobody has stopped us before so im certainly not gonna let time get in our way were stronger than that afterall hes depending on me and much as im depending on him x x x x x x x x xx x x

hi im maribel moreno and i am a 18yr old teenage mother who is 3 months pregnant and i am stressin so much cause my baby daddy got locked up and will be gone for a minute so i got to be mommy and daddy i try my hardest and my best to support him,seehim,write him,do all i can . i try my best to stay strong wait for him keep my promises and follw my dreams/ which is to have him come home to us me his 1st baby momma ,future wife,and the love of his life .our baby which is all he ever wanted and desire his 1st child.all i want is to stay strong , keep dreaming,have faith,be married to him even if i have to marry him in joint,have our own family one day and for us to be happy start out fresh and leave the pass behind move on i love him and with all my heart and soul and i know he love me as well and as long as my boo/boo stays lovin me ill stay by his side and ride with him till we once again reunite in the real world.i know im young /also a mother i have to think bout our love ,our dreamg /our 1st baby, and most of aalthe promises.he got 6yrs hopefully he do only 3 by law if you know wat i mean . me n him been through alot hell n back but im willin to give us a new statr over again.he grew up with no family he had foster parents but always in and of jail.sellin drugs.bangin.he was lost,angry,and had no love cold blooded but i knew deep down inside hes got feelins even a killa got heart.he got pain n i want to be the one to heal his heart and gain its trust alot of people turn they back on him and i want2 b the first not to .hes my all ..... he holds my heart i have faith n confident in our relatinship.i knoww iwon his heart hes all mine no one elses and as long as change ill stick by him till the end aslong as he comes home a new man and dont hurt me or hit me ill support him 100 percent.i need him as well as our baby .till then i got to hold on n stay strong.all i know is ill stay on my knees prayin for my dreams .my baby been gone for 3 months n it feels like its been 4eva. how long will this conti nue my loneliness/pain/tears/sress one thing i know is he wont be gone forever im sure iknow hell be goin n comin back to my arms body n soul no doubt. good luck to you your loved one stay strong if you love him or her stay real true ur happiness will return once again .pray he or she will change n not makethe same mistakes again n learn from them.i wish u n ur partner good luck i wish uthe best hope both of u make it.god blessu thank u 4 readin my issues problems pain hopes dreams n wats with in my heart. good bye

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2 all my girls out there who got a love one who is locked up i know it is very stressin hurtful and u r strugglin .i feel u deeply cuz im goin through da same thngs .i am 3 months pregnant and baby daddy lockd up 4 6yrs it hurts n i wish things aint end up the way they did. but like people say all things happen 4 a reason.i sayto my self why n wat r da reasons npoint iask god n pray for an explantion.all i know it hurts like a mothafucka to see baby daddy da luv of my life struggle wantin 2 cum home 2 his 1 n only family me n the baby we plan 2 make. naw it was no mistake like otherpeople they have babys with out wantin to but as young as i am i decide to give him a baby is all he eva wanted is all he really got me n our 1st baby together.my name is maribel moreno im 18yrs old mex/pr.live in chitown out south but grew up at humboltpark area my babydaddy rudyis25yrsold he black hes very hardheaded n got 2 learn the hard way .but thats how i met him n i luv him 6yrs is a long time but i know hell learn from his mistakes change n not let life pass him.i believe in him n i know he will change his bad way all i want is my baby back home where he belongs ,all i want is the men i first met .he locked up now as i said before he calls me his future wife he said he want 2 get married i said hell yeah so he got transfered 2 da joint last week im waitin 4 his next letter so i can know where he atso next time i go see him i want 2 tell him that when i have our baby right when i have it on august 26 06 even though is in jail im gonna n will marry him also illput his name on me cuz he got myname on him.i luv him n ill b waitin 4 as long as it takes. that is calld luv,that is calld dreams , that is called a real as female. n i know when he get out isgoin to be all about me n our baby, iknow he gonna luv me more then wat he already do when he get out is goin to be all about me,rudy,n our angel inside my womb against every 1 n against da world.my friends n fams think im crazy n im still young n they say im gonna move on n live my life, i say no,not,wont im 18 i know wat i want yeah of course im goin to move on but 2 get my shit 2gether n education aiso to get my life situated as 4 me i got no time 2 chase no nigga out in the streets that dont luv me n just want da best of me when i got a men who already luv me took time 2 know me want 2 marry me make babies n respectful luv im young n confident.so keep yaw head up stay strong to those who r strugglin follow ur heart not peoplesother choices and wat they think cuz most times they not goin to give the right answers u lookin 4 cuz they not in our shoes but also make sure that ur time waitin is worth waitin,good luck,i wish u da best. much luv 2 all my strong survivers. god bless yaww. amol..... stay coo thank u 4 readin my message. 4rm smiley aka survivor .

Wow I know how everyone feels so much! People say that know one will ever know how you feel, yet I do! I'm 17 years old and I have many experiences with the people closest to me being locked up. My father was locked up for 5 years. He just got out in October. The love of my life Joe (who is 22) just got put in on Feb. 14. Yes on Valentines Day! I was so mad at him that day for not calling me or letting me know anything. Now I'm mad at myself for not calling him more. I just went to go and visit him today. I live an hour and 30 minutes aways from the prision. I cryed the whole way home! It was hard to look at him, and not be able to touch him or hold him, or take him home with me. I had to leave him, and I turned away quick, so he couldn't see me cry. I miss him, and I know it will get worse before it gets better! If you have any advise let me know!

To stephanie meroni was up my name is maribel im 17yrs old mex/pr.im 4 months and found out im having ababy boy but any ways i know how u feel i grew up seeing my dad in prison and know my son is grewing up seeing daddy in prison my sons father is doin 6 years in state ville it bothers n it hurts especially when u go see ur luvd 1 n u cant give a kiss n hug good bye it hurts so much to even c him in chains n even though there in jail u still got so many worries i feel like im the one doin but hes the 1 who has crossed the line and really i cant sit here n complaint cus i chose to stick by him n go through it with him i will be along for this tough ride then 1 day we will b together n we will never have to be apart. also wat really got me holdin on 2 my babydaddy is our first child i love him so much n care for him alot that im willin to give us another try , leave pass b/hind move on ,get marry d ,have another baby 2/gether,is alot more to that. stephanie if u luv him n u feel its worth waitin 4 him n u r srong enough 2 wait 4 him go for it ,if u r confident and got hopes n believes do wat u do best n as long as he loves u n care 4 u then itll be worth .your heart controls your mind /your mind controls your heart.stay coo hold on good luck i wish u the best.if u have any advice let me know

Hi Im 22 and loved this site very helpful.... my Boyfriend of 5yrs just was recently locked up a month ago.. He has less than a year to serve.. BUT STILL.. I spent every waken moment with him.. Just a change WE BOTH need and must adjust too.. MISS YOU BABY ~~~ This poem I wrote to him and wanted to share it.

As the days go on and your not there
Its as if having wings with no air
The sky is dark and full of clouds
and yet my LOVE for u is strong with out a doubt
Waiting for the rays to beam through
means its getting closer & closer for me to see u
Counting down the months, weeks, and days
This was a rough price that had to be paid
Not just for u but for me too
cause this sure as hell proved our love is tru
The nights are the worse with out you here
I keep tousing & turning wishing u were near
My breathing gets heavy, my heart starts racing
My body starts trembling, I cant control the sweating
So I grab ur shirt full of ur scent
Holding it closely to my face
as if u were right there filling that empty space
But dont worry u'll be home soon
And than we will have the ocean~front,stars&moon

Were goin on vacation as soon as his ass comes home to me!! :) We both need it
GOODLUCK GIRLZ

Hi, first i'd like to say my heart goes out to everyone with a loved one locked up. My husband was locked up in 1999. He got sentenced to 5 yrs and 11 months for robbery with a dangerous weapon. He ended up serving 4 yrs and 3 months, it was a very long road for me and my 2 boys, at the time they was 2 yrs and 5 months. We was together 12 yrs when this happened. Through the yrs of him being locked up, we both have changed and some what had grown apart. during the last nine months of his sentence i had become close friends with someone and it turned into a relationship, which i ended up being very much in love with this other guy. My husband and i was still talking and i still took the boys to see their dad. He knew i was seeing this other guy and i agreed to break up with him to give my husband another 100th chance. He was released in may of 2003. We had alot of catching up to do and we had to get to reknow each other. I was now a different person then he had left 4+ yrs ago. I had gone from relying on him for everything to becoming a very independent woman who could do for myself. We argued often and i was always told that i need to learn how to be a wife again. In june 2003 a terrible accident happened that almost took his life, that day on forward is when i fell and continued to fall in love with him. By june of 2003 my husbands bad habbits come back and our realationship wasn't so hot up until may of 2005 which he got sentenced a few more months. We are currently still together and we are doing good. okay well thats damn near my life story,...so point is when u have a husband / boyfriend thats on lockdown,...it also puts you on lockdown,...and you didn't even do the crime, but if you love them you still do the time. Peace everybody and good luck with your lives!!!!

hey; how you doin as for me still strugglin tryin to hold on tight as best as i can with my situations and problems that im by myself pregnant at 18yrs old ,got no job ,no school education, no money,babydaddy locked up for breakin the law the most thing i wanted and needed was for my babydaddy to be here through my whole pregnantcy,be there for my labor and let him see his newborn child come out my womb i wanted him to see his new born baby the first time it comes to this world , i wanted him to hear the babys first cry the babys first breath when the baby first open up his or her eyes.i wish once upon a star he got to experienceall of that. but as we can see thats how life is we dont always get wat we want,or how we want things to go .i guess thats just how life is he been locked up for 4months im pregnant , im strugglin with him bein locked up and me bein 4months big belly alone stress, sad, mad, scared,anxiuos,depress,caus from what i have heard he will be gone for a while . he hasnt wrote me so im very worried and anxious/may be hes strugglin alot/may be he think iwont wait forhim and be patient which i will cause i love him i care for him this is our first child dont got no other.we told each other wed get married while he in jail or out i dont care as long as i dont lose the love of my life / as long as we belong to one another hes mine and im his.rudy is my pride and joy ilove him so much that if i can tray places i would . yesh i know how being locked up is i been there did time my self i been in and out of jail.what calmed me down from bein wild,to bein another reflection and image of my daddy was the love of my life rudy/mr.rufus.carson.jr,i cant afford to lose him for good not even when we go through difficulties in our life relation ship 3days before he got locked up we made this baby,so it makes me feel we are ment to be in eachothers life and in are future cause also no matter what i will always choose him first before any nigga in this whole u.s.a my love he stold it from me ,the key to my heart he haves it and always will.i realised im doin time to cause cause i love him and i choose to be on lock down counting the days,monhs,weeks,years.ill be waitin for his mail,ill be waitin for the visiting days,in nights ill feel lonely needing his comfort,love,and touch,ill be missing him,waiting for the happy days to come,waiting for them gates to open, chains to come off,to me its called doin time but the differences is i got freedom. my pride and joy got none,he blessed me with something i can always cherished and love our baby he didnt know i was pregnant till he got locked up i didnt know iether i found out on newyears day. iwas happy but sad because hes not here with me.when god permits it he will be there for me, the first,and the second one well make when he gets out. but as for now its all my peoples ,to those who are strugglin with a loved one being locked up hold on ,stay very strong and confident,if you love him so much and care for him dont let go,if you feel hes worth not letting go still do time with him support him write him be there for him cause to be real hell need you more then ever,he will appreciate it alot cause even a murderer got feelins so stay coo go day by day pray when you leas know it hell be knockin on your door, hell be sleepin next to you,makin love sayin thank you, i missed you, and I LOVE YOU....GOOD BYE, GOOD LUCK, GOD BLESSYOU.

hey; how you doin as for me still strugglin tryin to hold on tight as best as i can with my situations and problems that im by myself pregnant at 18yrs old ,got no job ,no school education, no money,babydaddy locked up for breakin the law the most thing i wanted and needed was for my babydaddy to be here through my whole pregnantcy,be there for my labor and let him see his newborn child come out my womb i wanted him to see his new born baby the first time it comes to this world , i wanted him to hear the babys first cry the babys first breath when the baby first open up his or her eyes.i wish once upon a star he got to experienceall of that. but as we can see thats how life is we dont always get wat we want,or how we want things to go .i guess thats just how life is he been locked up for 4months im pregnant , im strugglin with him bein locked up and me bein 4months big belly alone stress, sad, mad, scared,anxiuos,depress,caus from what i have heard he will be gone for a while . he hasnt wrote me so im very worried and anxious/may be hes strugglin alot/may be he think iwont wait forhim and be patient which i will cause i love him i care for him this is our first child dont got no other.we told each other wed get married while he in jail or out i dont care as long as i dont lose the love of my life / as long as we belong to one another hes mine and im his.rudy is my pride and joy ilove him so much that if i can tray places i would . yesh i know how being locked up is i been there did time my self i been in and out of jail.what calmed me down from bein wild,to bein another reflection and image of my daddy was the love of my life rudy/mr.rufus.carson.jr,i cant afford to lose him for good not even when we go through difficulties in our life relation ship 3days before he got locked up we made this baby,so it makes me feel we are ment to be in eachothers life and in are future cause also no matter what i will always choose him first before any nigga in this whole u.s.a my love he stold it from me ,the key to my heart he haves it and always will.i realised im doin time to cause cause i love him and i choose to be on lock down counting the days,monhs,weeks,years.ill be waitin for his mail,ill be waitin for the visiting days,in nights ill feel lonely needing his comfort,love,and touch,ill be missing him,waiting for the happy days to come,waiting for them gates to open, chains to come off,to me its called doin time but the differences is i got freedom. my pride and joy got none,he blessed me with something i can always cherished and love our baby he didnt know i was pregnant till he got locked up i didnt know iether i found out on newyears day. iwas happy but sad because hes not here with me.when god permits it he will be there for me, the first,and the second one well make when he gets out. but as for now its all my peoples ,to those who are strugglin with a loved one being locked up hold on ,stay very strong and confident,if you love him so much and care for him dont let go,if you feel hes worth not letting go still do time with him support him write him be there for him cause to be real hell need you more then ever,he will appreciate it alot cause even a murderer got feelins so stay coo go day by day pray when you leas know it hell be knockin on your door, hell be sleepin next to you,makin love sayin thank you, i missed you, and I LOVE YOU....GOOD BYE, GOOD LUCK, GOD BLESSYOU.

Hello ladies i am writting to say that even though my man got sentenced a long long time i started praying and i believe that Jesus is going to send him home to me way before 2016. I mean we we are going to get married i mean we can get married while he is behind bars but i rather do it when he comes home i really miss him and i need him here with me and i cry alot and get down but i know and believe that there is a man with a higher power above that has everything under control......and he will and he is working our situation out so i say that to say to all of you with men or love ones behind bars pray and Jesus will answer all of your needs and wants.

dammn all i kwn is love hurtz so we all cry tearz dropping from my eyez the pain i cant explain all i kwn is love is PAIN!!!

S O S IN DENIAL
Two decades ago my search for true friendship was, even then, an evanescent hope - before I stumbled upon the gravestone of compassion, before time taught me to embrace the living void of solitude, before I grew intimate with the emptiness.
I now search for individuals who represent the harsh reality that I've grown accustomed to, those who will fill the coldness of my darkness with more empty promises and complete the haunting silence of my environment with indifference to the danger I face.
I welcome you to lie to me, to mislead me, to draw me further into the drowning depths of distrust. Disregard my pleas and, as you please, mock my open heart; comfort my fears by discarding my letters into the nearest curbside can; counter my prayers for respite with even more fervent supplications for my demise. And on my birthday, curse the day I was conceived.
Send no letters or cards spare the life of a tree
vote for politicians who promise to execute me
and when you and your friends are idly talking
never fail to denigrate
this DEAD MAN WALKING.
I NEED YOU to help end my existence at:
Kevin D. Pelzer #BC-9251 S.C.I. @ Greene (Death Row)
175 Progress Drive Waynesburg, Penna. 15370
U.S.A. E-Mail: BulletproofIuv4kdp@Hotmail.com

MY BOYFRIEND IS GONE NOW HE GOT SENTENCED 10 YRS , HE A GREAT FATHER TO OUR CHILDREN..... I LUV HIM ..... ARE RELATIONSHIP HAD A LOT OF UP AND DOWNS BUT WE'VE REMAINED TOGETHER FOR 8 YRS GOING TO 9..... NOW THAT HE'S GONE I'M NOT THE SAME ALWAYS ANGRY NEVER WANTING TO HOME WHERE I SHOULD BE .. GOSSIP COMES UP HIS FAMILY TRYING TO BREAK US UP..... HE IN JAIL BUT IM THERE WITH HIM TO I'VE ALWAYS HAD HIS BACK.....WHAT IS A WOMEN TO DO ? IS THERE A PLACE OR WEBSITE I CAN GO TO TO SPEAK TO OTHER LADY'S AS MYSELF WHO HAVE A LOVE ONE INCARSERATED..... I WANT IT TO WORK OUT...THAT'S WHY I'M WRITING..... WITH ALL THE STUFF THAT HAPPENS WHERE I'M FROM SOMETIMES IT'S EASIER TO LET GO THEN TO STAY STRAIGHT BUT REGARDLESS OF OUR HISTORY ...... I LUV HIM I WANT TO BE THE WOMEN HE HOPES I AM PLEASE HELP ME ....I WANT TO FAITHFUL IN MIND , BODY AND SPIRIT ! ERICA.. BRENTWOOD, N.Y

My b/f was tried, convicted and sentenced before we met. He appealed and was out on bail. We met, fell in love and lived our lives with his case hanging over our heads. Last week we got word that his appeal had been denied and he is to start serving his 10 year sentence on June 12, 2006. I have cried everyday since I found out and I would really like to talk to people going thru the same thing. I love him sooooooo much but I am so scared. He will be in federal prison and I just pray that he is okay. Im even thinking about marrying him before he goes in with hopes of those visits. 10 years is a long time and we pray and pray. I truly hope that god sees us thru this because our hearts are gud, we dont wish harm on anyone. He is the best thing to ever happen to me. I am soooo scared. Please help me!

"The Sweetest Thing I've Eva Known"
I'm 28, my Honey is now 30, I was 13 and he was 15 when we 1st met. We have a beautiful 12 year old daughter and he's been away from us ALL her life and most of mine. We've been together over 15 years and I can tell you from personal experience WE'VE CONQURED IT ALL! He's been married to another woman he knew for two weeks as a result of my cheating on him with his cousin (unbenounced to me from the start)and TELLING him about it, among MANY other trials because of "life's changes". We've ALWAYS been TOTALLY honest with one another, REGARDLESS of the hurt it may cause, and we talk THROUGH our emotions with one another now as a result. Love like this had *NOTHING* to do with us,we know now,it was a gift from the Creator himself. I love him more now today than yesterday and the days to come, because Love just recently led us back to one another and here is where we'll stay. He's BEEN divorced from the woman, and I've been working on my Relationship with God. I encourage all of you to take your relationships with your love ones to a "SPIRITUAL" level, only then can your love TRULY be free against all odds. Know that Honesty and Communication are KEY in the Love lives we have..we can't make it without it. I'm here to talk with *ANYONE* who needs and ear or a voice. Be encouraged and know that Love is best when given Unconditionally

The following poem came from the love of my life who has been locked down for 6 months now...we don't know what the future brings until the end of November...he was offered a deal for 10-20 which he obviously turned down...No matter how long it takes I'll stand behind him forever...I Love You Baby!

"I don't know what I ever did without you,
Before I ever saw your smile,
Before I ever had you here to turn to,
To laugh with and to talk with for a while.

I don't know what I ever did without you,
before I had you always by my side,
before you ever warmed my heart with kindness,
before you ever filled my heart with pride.

I don't know what I ever did without you,
for you've become a part of me somehow,
and since I've had you here to love, and love me,
I know I couldn't do without you now."


10 Golden Rules for staying happy with the one you love...
1. First and foremost love eachother. Realize how lucky you are to be in love with someone who loves you. Say "I love you" often and in different ways.
Suprise eachother often with gifts of praise to show your love. Remeber that love grows in an atmosphere of freedom and trust, not from restraint and obligation. Do things to keep your love and romance new and alive. Don't take love for granted ever. It's such a blessing

2.Listen objectively to eachother, as you would to a friend. Acceptance is a key to understanding and a buffer for tension and resentment. Don't take things personally; give eachother the right to have different opinions, the right to disagree. You don't want anyone to control your feelings, so don't try to own someone else's; not even the feelings of the one you love.

3.Never stop treating eachother like sweethearts. Talk to eachother as sweethearts. Do things that sweethearts do. Work together in achieving your goals. Do things just to make the other one feel loved, especially when they might be feeling down. Take pride in the way you look and act, for yourself and your partner, but never let external values have more importance than internal feelings.

4.Always take care of eachother. Put the other one first, but don't neglect your own needs either. Do things that show your interested in your partners needs, and desires, and problems.

5.Look to eachother for help. Don't let your problems or concerns get out of hand and make you go in opposite directions. Be joyful that you've each made a commitment to the other, through sickness or health, poverty or wealth, or whatever else may come along. Your in this life together, Be thankful.

6.Talk about things together the way you would talk to a friend. Absolutely refuse to say anything negative about your partner. Share your most important secrets, and never betray the secrets of your partner. Keep your own identity but walk together as one. Don't ever give up on your love.

7.Bottle the fact that you made your choice and you are no longer looking for anyone else. Don't flirt. Think of consequences. Don't consider it.

8.Be in agreement about how your money is spent. Big items should have the approval of both. Talk about how to manage finances.

9.When in doubt about your actions, ask yourself how you would want to be treated and then act. Be faithful about this, you won't be sorry. Do what will make you both the happiest in the longrun and be the best for your relationship.

10.Have fun! And always love eachother!

Whenever feeling down or in doubt you should read these. My advice is to stay strong and think about the future...treasure what you have in your relationship...think of how much stronger it will be in the future when you look back and see what you survived together...If you can make it through this you can make it through anything together.

Hi to All,
I've just found this site and its very uplifting to my spirit. My husband to be is in prision and it seems as if everyday gets harder. He's serving a 10 yr sentence with 3 yrs already served. To all the wives how do u do it? I love him with my all unconditionally but it seems like a nightmare thats never going to end. If one could can someone whoses been here or currently going through the same give me some suggestions, words of wisdom, or advice on how to deal/handle all the mixed emoitions that I have inside. mzdee0781@yahoo.com

Hello people. I am so glad to see everyone useing the site so much. I have seen that spammers are disrespecting the site. In fact a week ago or so I removed over 800 pieces of spam from this site. If you see any can you please report it to me via the contact page? I really can't keep up with it if I don't know where it is because there are so many threads. I do ask that you do not buy from the spammers products cause they are trashing our site. SPAMMERS I WILL REMOVE THE LINKS.
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He was my highschool sweetheart, and we were suppose to get married. We went through the usual ups and downs, then he was taken away just like that! 10 years we have to face, its been almost 7 now. Had I known these years would go by and my heart still beats everyday for him, I would have waited! Im stuck now, in a relationship i let get too far knowing my heart belonged to this man locked away. For 7 years, ive secretly cried and secretlay wanted him and still do! Had I known that nothing I have done in these 7 years was worth me not waiting! I still secretly write him and he writes me. We both love each other so much, yet I was untrue! My heart aches everyday for him and for what i have done! I need him. I was so young when he was taken (almost 18). Now 25, I still cry every night for him. I cry in the shower, I secretly cry when I am "with" my current mistake. My prayers are with him everyday and I hope one day we will be reunited and get to finally finish what we had. I love you Carlos!!! A piece of me was taken with you, I have never been the same without you! Although I have made some bad choices since you were taken from me, I love you so much.

Hi Everyone,
I'm new to this site, and believe me, i'm amazed on how many ladys are in the same shoes as me. My husband is in prison and i miss him so much. This is my first experience with him. My relationship it's different. And i love him with all my heart. I miss him :(

I'm thankful i ran across this website, because for a year now i have been waiting and i felt alone. Although its comforting to hear people like me i still hate the fact anyone should feel the pain we feel everyday waiting for the one's we love to come home again. Sometimes i wondered how i could possibly wait for so long (10years), but then i just knew, that my love for him was so strong that time could never tear our love apart. No matter what, i know that one day we are going to be together again, and when that day comes it will make up for all the time we've been kept apart. It's hard sometimes, but never give up!! God Bless all the inmates and families who are going through their own times of wait. I pray for strength for all of us!!

I AM MARRIED TO AN INMATE IN TENN PRISON AND HES BEEN IN THERE ABOUT 14 YRS THIS YEAR. HE WENT IN AT AGE 25 AND NOW HE IS 38. HE HAS LIFE WITH THE POSSABILITY OF PAROLE. HIS PAROLE DATE IS 2018.

i have rcently split up with my boyfriend of 4 years that is currently in prison. i promised to stay true but got drunk 1 night and couldnt resist temptation to a drunkern snog an cos of that ive not only lost my boyfriend but my best friend and my soul mate. we are still in touch with 1 anotha but no longer an item. i wish they was something i could do to make him give me anotha chance cos i love him deeply an the pain im feeling is unbareable, if u ever see vis ben i just want you to know that i love you so much an i hope that upon your release we could give it anotha go, all my love, bekki x x x x x x x